"You have reached Solus zos Galvus. I fear I am unavailable at the moment, but should your query be of an urgent nature, pray leave a message. I shall endeavor to return it anon."
It is hard to not worry about a man who likes to keep secrets. My mind puzzles at how you must have fallen to bruise there, but not other contact points along those body lines... and in truth, I can only picture you taking a tumble down the stairs so many times.
[And now he’s swapping how they’re talking. Typing is a little slow on such a small device with his enormous fingers. He mostly just sounds kind of sad. In the background is the sound of a faucet running as he cleans off his hand and stomach. ]
How cruel must those around you be that you have become so prickly about concern. I merely wished to express my love to you.
[With the swap, his heart tightens in his chest. Hearing him sound so...worried pains him deeply, and makes him feel guilty, especially with that last part "I merely wish to express my love to you". He considers for a moment to continue with text, but that would be too cowardly.
So, when he responds, he tries to sound dismissive and uninterested. Trying to hide any guilt that might be coating his tone. He's only half successful.]
...I appreciate your concern, 'tis merely unnecessary. I wish not to think of my hurts more than they force me to.
[ So distracted is he that he nearly leaves without washing his mask. He sets his gear on the mirror’s shelf to continue talking. He unknowingly hits the video button in the process. He pulls the mask from his face and looks down at it with a sad sort of irritation. He clearly doesn’t know that Hades can see him as he rubs the drying come from it under the tap.]
Would that you could see that each of these exchanges merely convinces me of the opposite. What happened to you? It hurts my heart for you to shut me out so.... [he sighs. ]
I would have preferred to speak of aught else but you have forced me to wonder about this.
[When the video clicks on, Hades pauses and wonders if that was intentional, but how Hythlodaeus proceeds with his little chore, and does not look at the camera, how...genuine his expression of sorrow and vexation. He closes his eyes, bringing his hand to his face to rub at them with a thumb and forefinger.]
I have not forced this, you merely choose to plague your thoughts with concerns that are meaningless.
[Wait, that's not the right word for it...]
Well, of no consequence, seeing as they change nothing. I am safe, naught else need concern you.
Very well, keep your secrets. We should be there in two weeks’ time and I will be able to ascertain that for myself. Until then I shall leave this topic be.
[He huffs as he picks up a cloth and dries his mask carefully with a buffing motion. He peers at his gear and frowns. ]
Ah, damn. I wanted to save my face for next time, or the time after.
[HE HATES THIS, but Hythlodaeus does not need to know about what went down. He can be concerned, but that will fade away as he proves there's nothing else that will result the same. It's for the better.
He's stuck on what to even say, rare though that is, but then when Hythlodaeus realizes he's revealed his face to him (something that Hades is honestly...so appreciative of. Gazing upon his features like that after so, so long... He could recall them perfectly, everything about him he could, but to see them again with his own eyes...]
'Tis a balm to my heart to see your face again all the same.
[That eases him. A little. But it does not purge the guilt from his bosom. Likewise, he turns on his camera, making sure it's only of his shoulders and up. He hardly needs to send them back to the other topic due to sloppiness. His gaze is soft and loving, full of wistfulness as is his small smile.]
Would that you could...but I suppose this will do for now. Two weeks is naught to us, and I have waited far longer for your return.
[Oops, dipping back into the heavy topics here, wasn’t he? He carries his ‘gear around, redressing into his hanger of clothes. The robe must have been at the laundromat. Of course people stare at him as it is, but no one was expecting a Buddhist monk to be here sucking dick. ]
[...Oh dammit all. If the question weren't so distracting, he might have asked about his...spare clothes. But it doesn't matter. He can feel panic rising in him as he realizes the landmine he inadvertently stepped on. He never confirmed if his friend knew about the war between the gods, if he knew of the fate that would come to their people...
AND NOW HE'S GONE AND GOOFED. He keeps his expression pretty neutral of the panic rattling his mind, but it shows in his eyes.]
Well, I have been here for more than a moon.
[He knows how weak that sounds, how that is such an obvious dodge, and he hates it. But look, he's trying to work with this whiplash conversation post orgasm, and he's overworked on top of it! Cut him some slack!]
[He sighs but he’s not about to corner him over this, too. That just wasn’t his style. ]
There was a time in our past that you might have called that a blessing. Well, how circumstance changes all else around it.
[He steps outside, the gentle breeze carrying his hair as he reaffixes his mask.]
It seems so easy to fall into these intimate exchanges with others here. Have you found yourself given any attentions? One might wonder with how quickly you found yourself home.
[He's still a fool with how he keeps pushing Hythlodaeus away like this, but he doesn't know what to do with himself, honestly.]
I try not to speak intimately with others here, little do I need such connections when this world is unstable. As for my settling...'twas with fair ease, though this will never be home.
[Though, he's spoken quite intimately with Estinien, but that's different in his mind.]
At being forgiven, there's clear emotion that flashes across his expression, and behind his eyes. It's such a simple thing, and maybe it should not strike him like that, and yet it does. He's been at his toils for eons, doing the most horrible things to ensure his people's restoration, regretting every moment he wasted in Amaurot. Knowing not what would come, know that those days truly had a limit, and that life would die well before its time.
That his friends would do the same. That everyone would, save him and two others.
When he speaks, his voice is thick and strained, but he's trying to hide that fact, just like he's trying to hide the emotion behind his face.]
Sure they can, if one knows how to well reason with themselves.
[Hythlodaeus stares directly into the camera and can’t help but laugh uproariously into his face. ]
Oh? Have you become a master of denial? What next? Food? Sleep? Don’t be ridiculous, Hades. You would make me engage with such a silly joke as if it were a serious point of debate?
[He's quiet for a moment, his expression clearly contemplative and...frustrated.]
...The mind can weather far more than you give it credit for. Mayhap yours is one that gets lost without constant love and affection, but I have learned that I can fair endure more than you suggest me capable.
I tire of this. You should return to the others ere they worry you've gotten yourself lost in more than simply your sentimental idealism.
I’m already on my way. Would you have me run? I’ll leave you alone if that’s truly what you wish... [ He hasn’t missed the little shifts in his dear friends’ expression, of course. But it was so much to unpack. He wonders if he should have pointed out the bruising.]
Well, I see no point in continuing this conversation, you've well ruined what enjoyment there would be from this interaction—unless you are not satisfied with that?
[He mulls on that for a moment, then shakes his head.]
Nay, the mood has passed.
[Without thinking, he runs his hand through his hair in frustration...and wipes some of his mess right into it. He freezes the moment he realizes he's done this, but then tries to play it off, keeping his hand there as he lightly grips his hair.
He'll just shower after this.]
I shouldn't keep you. Both you and Estinien need your rest for travel, and it's getting late...
[Hythlodaeus raises his eyebrows. Had he had the chance to wash his hands? He’d pushed his friend to the threshold already anyway. He says nothing but the visible part of his facial expression betrays his thoughts. The merciful thing would be to allow him a graceful exit to go wash up...]
...Yes, but of course. We do need our rest. Goodnight, Hades.
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I am injured. I am healing. That is all that matters. Leave it be.
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How cruel must those around you be that you have become so prickly about concern. I merely wished to express my love to you.
Voice;
So, when he responds, he tries to sound dismissive and uninterested. Trying to hide any guilt that might be coating his tone. He's only half successful.]
...I appreciate your concern, 'tis merely unnecessary. I wish not to think of my hurts more than they force me to.
[Which is true, but...]
Video
Would that you could see that each of these exchanges merely convinces me of the opposite. What happened to you? It hurts my heart for you to shut me out so.... [he sighs. ]
I would have preferred to speak of aught else but you have forced me to wonder about this.
voice;
I have not forced this, you merely choose to plague your thoughts with concerns that are meaningless.
[Wait, that's not the right word for it...]
Well, of no consequence, seeing as they change nothing. I am safe, naught else need concern you.
Video;
[He huffs as he picks up a cloth and dries his mask carefully with a buffing motion. He peers at his gear and frowns. ]
Ah, damn. I wanted to save my face for next time, or the time after.
Voice;
He's stuck on what to even say, rare though that is, but then when Hythlodaeus realizes he's revealed his face to him (something that Hades is honestly...so appreciative of. Gazing upon his features like that after so, so long... He could recall them perfectly, everything about him he could, but to see them again with his own eyes...]
'Tis a balm to my heart to see your face again all the same.
[This is a much better topic, anyway.]
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If only this place had proper teleportation, I would be by your side tonight.
[It had been too long since he had seen Hades. In any way he wanted to see him, that was.]
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Would that you could...but I suppose this will do for now. Two weeks is naught to us, and I have waited far longer for your return.
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[Oops, dipping back into the heavy topics here, wasn’t he? He carries his ‘gear around, redressing into his hanger of clothes. The robe must have been at the laundromat. Of course people stare at him as it is, but no one was expecting a Buddhist monk to be here sucking dick. ]
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AND NOW HE'S GONE AND GOOFED. He keeps his expression pretty neutral of the panic rattling his mind, but it shows in his eyes.]
Well, I have been here for more than a moon.
[He knows how weak that sounds, how that is such an obvious dodge, and he hates it. But look, he's trying to work with this whiplash conversation post orgasm, and he's overworked on top of it! Cut him some slack!]
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There was a time in our past that you might have called that a blessing. Well, how circumstance changes all else around it.
[He steps outside, the gentle breeze carrying his hair as he reaffixes his mask.]
It seems so easy to fall into these intimate exchanges with others here. Have you found yourself given any attentions? One might wonder with how quickly you found yourself home.
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[He's still a fool with how he keeps pushing Hythlodaeus away like this, but he doesn't know what to do with himself, honestly.]
I try not to speak intimately with others here, little do I need such connections when this world is unstable. As for my settling...'twas with fair ease, though this will never be home.
[Though, he's spoken quite intimately with Estinien, but that's different in his mind.]
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You were, but I forgive you.
[He makes a thoughtful noise. ] I’m not sure if one can simply “opt out” of basic needs like love and comfort.
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At being forgiven, there's clear emotion that flashes across his expression, and behind his eyes. It's such a simple thing, and maybe it should not strike him like that, and yet it does. He's been at his toils for eons, doing the most horrible things to ensure his people's restoration, regretting every moment he wasted in Amaurot. Knowing not what would come, know that those days truly had a limit, and that life would die well before its time.
That his friends would do the same. That everyone would, save him and two others.
When he speaks, his voice is thick and strained, but he's trying to hide that fact, just like he's trying to hide the emotion behind his face.]
Sure they can, if one knows how to well reason with themselves.
[Yet, it's clear he's full of shit.]
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Oh? Have you become a master of denial? What next? Food? Sleep? Don’t be ridiculous, Hades. You would make me engage with such a silly joke as if it were a serious point of debate?
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[Hades scowls at his friend, utterly unappreciative of his laughter.]
I will not expire from the lack of love and comfort like I would water or food.
[Not that he's been the best about that either.]
Cease such absurdity, 'tis not as much of a need as you might wish to believe.
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[He sighs as his tone of voice becomes slow and even once more. ]
Without love and comfort the mind withers muchlike the body withers without food and rest. What clear thoughts can be made in such a state?
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...The mind can weather far more than you give it credit for. Mayhap yours is one that gets lost without constant love and affection, but I have learned that I can fair endure more than you suggest me capable.
I tire of this. You should return to the others ere they worry you've gotten yourself lost in more than simply your sentimental idealism.
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I’m already on my way. Would you have me run? I’ll leave you alone if that’s truly what you wish... [ He hasn’t missed the little shifts in his dear friends’ expression, of course. But it was so much to unpack. He wonders if he should have pointed out the bruising.]
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[He says bitterly.]
Well, I see no point in continuing this conversation, you've well ruined what enjoyment there would be from this interaction—unless you are not satisfied with that?
[Well, someone's bitchy.]
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[His smile slowly broadens as his eyes flick down the the camera before he looks back to where he’s going. ]
Unless you would truly rather be rid of me.
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Nay, the mood has passed.
[Without thinking, he runs his hand through his hair in frustration...and wipes some of his mess right into it. He freezes the moment he realizes he's done this, but then tries to play it off, keeping his hand there as he lightly grips his hair.
He'll just shower after this.]
I shouldn't keep you. Both you and Estinien need your rest for travel, and it's getting late...
[It's really not that late...]
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...Yes, but of course. We do need our rest. Goodnight, Hades.
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